No Reason to Live Without You.

truly, i believed that to many, i was really a dying string of hair among the rest. it didnt matter whatever happened to this one strand. i grew and i died and that’s that.

it was only when the body needed some form of protection for the scalp, i existed. but my appearance was never long. next thing i knew, i was already lying on the cold covering.

i played my part without hesitation, gave out many yeses along the way. rain or shine, i rooted myself in firmly. yet in the end, however tough i was trying to be, i either died being plucked, or died from getting old and sick.

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of all the many encounters u have had in life, u probably wouldnt remember who i was, and maybe what i was.

my head is now a walking time bomb……

i am 101% sure that i am now a shellfish build. i am 101% unsure whether i was the same last ten to twelve years. what i can forage of my past are only a select few things. things i have been blogging about to this day, i can always look up on them and feel good. minus some. recent ones were so filled with things i didnt even feel happy to blog about. it was all emotional stuff crammed together (even this one), more than ready to be dumped onto something. or somebody. anybody.

i still dont get it, what friends slash acquaintances slash companions are.

simply put, i dont even know where to begin sorting them out. the more i think about it, the more i become foreign of my being. i hate it i just cant say no. but who would have cared.

selfishly put, i think i am better off solo.

perhaps only then, i dont have to care so much bout anything but myself.

if i am still insyirah to u, thank you =) if i have reached out for u, consider that a hint =) thank you thank you thank you for being so thoughtful people =) happiness does not come solely from what’s around, i believe =)

~ by Shi on April 11, 2009.